by Hilsong
You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost it's sting
You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
In your presence I'm made whole
You are God, You are God
Of all else I'm letting go
Oh, I’m running to your arms
I’m running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign
My heart will sing
NO OTHER name
Jesus, Jesus
We sang this song at church last year, just days after my first miscarriage and I remember standing there, trying to sing these words but it was impossible because I was in so much grief and couldn't stop the tears. When we got to the chorus, "Oh, I'm running to your arms I'm running to your arms, the riches of your love will always be enough, nothing compares to your embrace" I remember just closing my eyes and could feel Gods presence in the midst of such sorrow and sadness. Standing there I told God, I don't know how to count this trial as a joy but please help me to! There are no words to describe the peace that can only come from God.
Fast forward a year...
Last night at church we dedicated our miracle baby Keira back to God. Even before she was born, I told God that she belonged to Him, not me. I want her time on Earth to be spent serving God however God wants. Today was a public display before our church family that we are committed to raising her according to Gods standards. Our dear friends Chesed and Patrick were there to pray with us as we dedicated Keira. Chesed was such an amazing friend to me during all the miscarriages. She would send me texts, scripture and just listen. The power of a listening friend!! It was so special to have her there with us.
After her dedication one of the songs we sang was the one that brought me to tears every time I heard it after the miscarriages. This song will always be a reminder of Gods love and the peace that can only come from Him. In HIM, death has lost its sting. Only in His presence am I made whole. We all have a void in our life. A void that only God can fill. Some can easily acknowledge that void. Others try to fill that void with 'stuff' that just doesn't satisfy. No spouse or child can fill that void.
Even before God surprised us with Keira I knew that HE was enough. No baby could fill me or complete me, only God could do that. My life is not defined by my children. God will always be enough. The only thing I know is that even if God did not bless us with another child, I am complete in Him. Nothing on this planet will ever satisfy or come remotely close to the peace that comes from God.
Pastor Ryan Motsinger, who is one of our friends, prayed over Keira during the dedication service. It was such a special night!
