LadyBear

LadyBear is due in 8 days!  Rewind 11 months ago and I never would have imagined I would be blessed to go through another pregnancy/delivery.

Not many people knew about the 3 babies we lost in a 7 month period or the devastating news we received from our fertility Doctor about not being able to have more biological children.

Weeks after our horrible news from the fertility Dr was when we found out I was 4 weeks pregnant with LadyBear.  I immediately called the fertility Dr and they did blood work.  They called me to their office to go over the lab results. The entire way there I was praying that whatever this pregnancy held that God would help me be at peace and trust Him with the results.  As soon as I got there I was told that we had already lost our baby.  It was the most supernatural peaceful feeling ever as I left the fertility Dr's office.  I was at complete peace with what God's plan was for us regardless if He blessed us with another baby.  Obviously I was very disappointed but I KNEW God had a plan and His plan was 100% better than anything I could come up with.

Hours after learning we had already lost LadyBear, I received a phone call from the fertility Dr saying he had some news but I was not allowed to ask any questions. I agreed and he then told me he was wrong and the baby (LadyBear) was not lost! He had no medical definition as to how this had happened and that's why I wasn't allowed to ask any questions. He had repeated the lab work and it showed my levels were more than doubling!  That is how our pregnancy with LadyBear started.  Every week for many weeks we had to go to follow-up appointments and each time, she had to have met his guidelines of progress or we would have to stop the hormone therapy he had put me on. Each week she more than exceeded his guidelines! God was truly at work in her little body already.

The closer I get to her due date the more emotional I feel about the three babies we lost.  We missed out on their due dates, bringing them home from the hospital, first smiles, first words, their first steps and so much more.  So many missed happy memories with those three little ones but, that wasn't Gods plan for us.  LadyBear is. Regardless of what the future holds, I know God is and always will be in control.  Just because bad things happen doesn't mean God doesn't love us or wants to hurt us.  We many never know why we had to go through that heartache but I know that God doesn't do anything without a purpose or a plan.

For the last 9 months I have dreamed about the day she is born so we finally get to see her and then to have my Dr put her in our arms!  I am so looking forward to kissing her cheeks and toes, smelling the newborn smell and watching her make funny faces in her sleep.  I am so appreciative that we get to do this again and not a second with her will be taken for granted.

There have been so many, many, many prayers prayed for this little one by us, family, our LifeGroup and our friends!